I've been positive all my life
But this isn't the time
My outlook turns negative as I stand in this line
The weight of this wait gives way to hesitation
Anxiety, attempts to overcome expectation
Think positive they say, but I can't really see it
Our thoughts breed realities and perhaps I might be it.
Rather be negative this time, spurn all signs of positivity
Agonizing about my past, my most mischievous activities
Moments, like cogs in a machine steady producing regret
A downward spiral toward depression, my brow fills with sweat
Being positive's a good thing, but not in this case
Negativity brings a new lease, aspirations to be chaste
Two weeks have gone by and what cruelty's been in it
My life flashes before me, eternities replace minutes
I've been positive all my life, this is hardly the time
I pray for negativity at the front of this line
The moment's finally come, time to end my reservations
Fast forward to the present and subdue all hesitation
Optimism now springs forth, inspiration, let it give
Having now discovered I'm H.I.V. negative…